Still pregnant and incredibly scared and happy! I don't think Keith fully believes me, and I think will feel more assured once we have the first proper Healthcare meeting. I am meeting with the Doctor next wednesday, when I think I will be around 6 weeks pregnant!
So early on, but K has already told his parents! I know I know... But it must be done. I think our philosophy is if it is meant to be, it is meant to be. We're both so delighted, I think, but petrified too? That must be normal!
So timeline! Unsure of actual ovulation day, and periods generally irregular moving from 23-28 days, so will go from 24 day of cycle.
24 day - first faint positive, incredibly sore boobs, hot head, period cramps (about 12dpo)
25 day - stomach pains, tensing up like stomach bug, 2nd faint positive
26 day - third and forth positive, taken through day and morning. cramping and straining in lower abdomin. boobs stopped hurting. creamy cm (nice!)
27 day - defo positive, odd cramps and tired. oh so tired.
28 day - defo positive, odd cramps.
Still fearing everyday to find a miscarriage, but I just don't think it will happen. I think this will be okay, you know, I think, ladies and gentlemen, we have a 'Sticker'
So this week we shall call the dude the 'cluster' as it moves out from being a cluster of cells into something. Next week will be known as 'peanut' me thinks
I hope Keith is okay. I think he is in shock, but he just looks scared all the time. I guess even though we have been planning this and even though we knew it would come at some point, I guess you can never prepare for the feeling of becomming a parent!
More to come xxx
Wednesday, 23 February 2011
Sunday, 20 February 2011
Maybe baby
yoYoYO! 26th february 2011 and we think we have (a very faint, but a true one, none the same) BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is a Sunday morning, so we have to now wait twohours before we can get out and go and buy another test to confirm!!!!!! holy crap! i think i need keith to be convinced before i truely believe it myself.... but maybe baby!!!!!!!!
It is a Sunday morning, so we have to now wait twohours before we can get out and go and buy another test to confirm!!!!!! holy crap! i think i need keith to be convinced before i truely believe it myself.... but maybe baby!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 13 February 2011
still a go-go
Still having a good a go at this as we can. I am trying this month to not be too obsessive, to try to just hope but i think anyone who tries would tell you it is hard. K still can't understand although he is totally on board now. he is being very supportive, and really I think wants this as much as I do.
I totally sorted the house out today. i like it when it is all sorted. It makes me want to have this B even more. i wonder how I would change everything in order to make sure the B had everythign it needs, but i guess people just do. i have given up smoking now for the third week, and although hard, it is for the good, and i am glad. i never wanted to be that mother that still smoked around their child, that wouldn't be fair.
I still wonder if there are troubles, ahead, inside. We shall see. This month we have been pretty consistent, pretty much every two days, so unless I ovulated on my period, we're pretty much there. unless, unless....!
I totally sorted the house out today. i like it when it is all sorted. It makes me want to have this B even more. i wonder how I would change everything in order to make sure the B had everythign it needs, but i guess people just do. i have given up smoking now for the third week, and although hard, it is for the good, and i am glad. i never wanted to be that mother that still smoked around their child, that wouldn't be fair.
I still wonder if there are troubles, ahead, inside. We shall see. This month we have been pretty consistent, pretty much every two days, so unless I ovulated on my period, we're pretty much there. unless, unless....!
Saturday, 5 February 2011
Februrary 2011 ~ 5 Months Tryingw
So we have been trying now for 5 months, although I suppose honestly, probably only three of those have involved us both being on board and feeling the same way. Initially it was mainly me driving all the trying, but DKN now wants this more than me I think!
We have been married now for just under one year, but have been together for 10 years this month. We are truely happy together, both working and own our first house together. I think we have set up a lovely foundation to begin a family, so now its just wait and see!
I have already started to get a little peculiar about wanting a baby. I suppose this is the first thing in my life that I have wanted, and can't just have because of the want alone. I have found it both fascinating and incredibly depressing to discover about the makings of a baby. After 15 years of fearing I would get pregnant at any point, it has been incredibly strange to discover that actually getting pregnant can be harder than I first thought!
My periods are incredibly irregular, not in the dramatic sense ~ but as much as it is difficult to predict ovulation, therefore difficult to predict when the most fertile period is etc. I think after spending January hoping in vain that we were pregnant, we're both of the mind to just keep 'at it' all month through ~ which makes us both happy!
I have given up smoking (JEEZO!) for two weeks now, so I am hoping that this will make a wee bit of difference. I am also cycling again (although my bike is a pile of pants). hopefully getting fitter and healthier will make the difference.
Anyway ~ I thought I would keep this blog to log how the process goes, and we shall see. Maybe this month! x
As the Americans say ~ BABY DUST!!! XXXX
We have been married now for just under one year, but have been together for 10 years this month. We are truely happy together, both working and own our first house together. I think we have set up a lovely foundation to begin a family, so now its just wait and see!
I have already started to get a little peculiar about wanting a baby. I suppose this is the first thing in my life that I have wanted, and can't just have because of the want alone. I have found it both fascinating and incredibly depressing to discover about the makings of a baby. After 15 years of fearing I would get pregnant at any point, it has been incredibly strange to discover that actually getting pregnant can be harder than I first thought!
My periods are incredibly irregular, not in the dramatic sense ~ but as much as it is difficult to predict ovulation, therefore difficult to predict when the most fertile period is etc. I think after spending January hoping in vain that we were pregnant, we're both of the mind to just keep 'at it' all month through ~ which makes us both happy!
I have given up smoking (JEEZO!) for two weeks now, so I am hoping that this will make a wee bit of difference. I am also cycling again (although my bike is a pile of pants). hopefully getting fitter and healthier will make the difference.
Anyway ~ I thought I would keep this blog to log how the process goes, and we shall see. Maybe this month! x
As the Americans say ~ BABY DUST!!! XXXX
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