So Alone

And so, this is how it goes
Its like merry highs wrapped round merry lows, I've been
Growing up whilst growing old
And I didn't see me grow up past this...
Old friends, why, you, look so sad
You weren't aware I was hoping to be a part of that
I too have made choices rash
But now I am settled, I didn't see me going past you
Never mind, once again I am so alone
Like its nothing I have outgrown my own home,
Don't forget me, I said, as I moved on in my head
Leaving you waiting here for something that won't ever show.
They have already called me boring, for bearing your child
And that wasn't enough to make you defend me or our lives
So I guess once again I am here battling my own battles
With this inside me.