12 weeks

So we have finally reached the god damn 12 week part! Whoop! Nothing can explain the way I feel this week, it has been just like a shroud has been lifted, a veil parted ~ just feel so relieved. We all know there is still so much, but i am just hoping there is a nice home inside me which is keeping a little someone quite happy....!

I have had such a hard time internally over the past few months, I feel as though the doom that surrounds the first trimester is very much dramatised, and I have been feeling incredibly alone. The secret truely is in a good partner that you can discuss things with, and even though he will still never truely know what it is like, he is as supportive as anyone could ask for, and is always there for me.

We have been falling out more, tiredness, mis-understandings, etc but that is all normal. We just have to remember to keep loving each other too x

So Alone

And so, this is how it goes
Its like merry highs wrapped round merry lows, I've been
Growing up whilst growing old
And I didn't see me grow up past this...
Old friends, why, you, look so sad
You weren't aware I was hoping to be a part of that
I too have made choices rash
But now I am settled, I didn't see me going past you
Never mind, once again I am so alone
Like its nothing I have outgrown my own home,
Don't forget me, I said, as I moved on in my head
Leaving you waiting here for something that won't ever show.
They have already called me boring, for bearing your child
And that wasn't enough to make you defend me or our lives
So I guess once again I am here battling my own battles
With this inside me.