And I suppose you could say we are struggling. i think it is fair to say the both of us. I think I am really struggling on the hormonal front, which has a knock on effect on keith. we're argueing more than I ever thought we could at this stage, but they are not full blown horrid arguements, just spats, and lots of tears from me afterward.
I feel weak and pathetic most of the time, most things can set me off. i amstruggling with work, and how Jim and Jonathan are handling the flexible working procedure. it all seems to be going to shit at the moment, and potentially will go to a tribunal, which will just be horrific. I dont know what i am doing any more, and all I can think about is meeting this little guy and getting onwith life. But there are just so many worries to deal with befoergand.
I dont know how to stop myself from being so emotional all the time. i feel rubbish always taking things out on keith, at the same time, i do think he could be a little more lenient and flexible inhis approach, but currently i do feel as though the world is against me. no one can really do right to be honest.
i just want a holiday, away from everyone and everything, but that isn't possible either. just have to smile and carry on.
i have to admit this pregnancy malarkyis not as much fun as i thought it would be, whether thats just my hormones or whether that is just who i am an dhow this was always going to be. i know its not keith, i know its not the bubster, and i suspect its not work and everything that is going wrong there i worry i will carry this depression, or lowness with me to afte rth ebirth, but i try not to dwell on that too much.
Sunday, 10 July 2011
Sunday, 3 July 2011
maternity leave jobs
- write blogs
- create business
- sort campaign
- read books
- find local groups to join
- paint garden fence for summer
- sort wedding album and pictures
- name change all
- photography
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